Ramblings

June 25th, 2008» Not so noble after all

- 2:45 pm

Why should I be responsible for causing a change you decided upon yourself? Especially when you talked about having learnt to be responsible for the exact same thing.

I shut myself from you because I do not appreciate you to probe into certain aspects of my life. Yes, you can deny the actual probing-into-my-life thing. But what you can’t denied is that you had, more than once, asked too much that makes me very uncomfortable. It would be fine if you could stop there. Nevertheless, you sometimes insisted upon it even though I’ve make it clear that I do not want to share it with you.

Who are you to talk about deceptions? It became all too apparent that you approached me too many times with hidden agendas. I’ve been perfectly transparent to you about things that actually matters until I realised all these scheming-behind-my-back going on. And then, I realised you judged me as explicitly as I express my thoughts to you. You even conveniently and completely misunderstood my intentions thinking all I wanted is to get things to go my way.

I do not know if you realised by now it’s not your help that I really wanted. You keep insisting on emotional help that I do not need because you do not understand what I’m going through and you occasionally insisted on tangible needs that I had to reject stubbornly even if it might be a great relief to me.

Leave it at that and perhaps we can still smile and greet each other when our paths cross.

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January 23rd, 2008» Update

- 12:38 am

Things have been going pretty fine for me. Even if things are going tough, I have a bunch of wonderful friends I know I can always fall back on. I promised to be better to you all.

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November 20th, 2007» Go on

- 1:12 pm

Many things happened over the weeks. Things that really make me very unhappy. I am, however, not willing to talk about them because I do have my considerations. While I do not want to sound like I’m a lead character from some tragedy or something, I am really affected by a large extent.

Argh, I’ll get over it. What I need is time. Give me the space I needed to sort things out on my own because I don’t like being interferred too.

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