May 29th, 2007» You, of all people

- 1:13 am

Yes, I’m not happy about it. Not entirely because of what you said, but rather because it’s you who’s saying it.

I’m prepared for confrontations like this, but I least expected it to come from you. It’s just like what I used to tell you before, when you were complaining about the previous. It’s just that it’s no longer a thing that I can say now.

If you really must talk to me that way, for who I am now, go ahead. It just makes us further away than we already are. And, to say my piece, it was I who cleared the table and went to invite you over. I was prepared to offer my help to carry your stuffs. Following the previous’ footsteps? Yes.

I know it’s unbearable having you to wait for us all the time. I wouldn’t want that if I can help it. Besides, why should you, or anyone else, be complaining when we are actually putting in that much effort for the benefits of you? And you seems so determined to have to show that much “appreciation” by saying those insensitive things.

You made me went speechless then, with that kind of tone and attitude you spoke to me. A decade’s worth of time we had together seems so meaningless now, with that little understandings you spared me.

You, of all people, must do this to me. It doesn’t only angers me, it hurts me.

And, I’m writing it here because I know you will read this.

Comments

1. i told you that not because i want to make you feel like shit. but because i don’t want you guys to end up like them. when i said following the previous footsteps is not that people have to wait for you guys. but by the meaning that you guys are being so apart from the rest. and no, i don’t feel that having to wait for you guys is boring. she once asked me, why must i always wait for you guys to go back. i told her because we all stay near one another. but you should know, its because i’ve always seen you as an important friend, and i don’t leave those who matter to me behind. like i said that time, its a warning, not in the sense that i’m superior to you and i’m giving you a warning. but is i don’t want to see you guys go down that road that they went to. if i were to be insensitive at that time i would have given you examples and not just say it. and what i said wasn’t targeted at you only. it was also meant for him. its nothing personal. ya, i might have said it at the wrong time in the wrong way. but if that’s the only way to make you know, then i’ve got no other choice. you said “It just makes us further away than we already are.” why have we grown apart? you’ve got your stuff to do and i’ve got mine. ya, but why is it 4years ago we were able to stay close? i don’t know. i might have been wrong to not try to talk to you more. but the thing is everytime on our way home, you’re so tired. or else, i don’t know what to say to you. because when you’re talking to him you 2 are in a world of your own. and, frankly, i don’t know how to add in anything. and please, what i said that day, it wasn’t solely about that incident. you said “You, of all people, must do this to me. It doesn’t only angers me, it hurts me.” don’t you dare think it doesn’t make me sad.

   By x on June 5th, 2007 at 10:10 pm
   
   

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