February 28th, 2006» Great Recordings

- 10:24 pm

Recently, I have been listening a lot to the recordings weijie ripped and burnt, i mean gotten, for me from a DVD. Those are recordings of the high school japanese band competition. I was basically drooling over the standard of the high school bands over there! They are rather technical but they are, overall, far more superior than most singaporean bands I’ve heard.

Here’s the songs that kept me occupied these days:
Dancing in the Wind -KAZE-NO-MAI-
Yosuke Fukuda -/ Yodogawa Technical High School

AIRS for Wind Orchestra
Tsutomo Tajima -/ Inagakuen Sogo High School

AFRICA - Ceremony, Song and Ritual
Robert W. Smith -/ Kashiwa High School

The Miraculous Mandarin
Bela Bartok / Mamoru Nakata -/ Yumoto High School

Feste Romane - I. Circenses, IV. La Befana
Ottorino Respighi / Mamoru Nakata -/ Komazawa University High School

La Mer - III. Dialogue du vent et de la mer
Claude Debussy / Yoshikazu Hatta -/ Yono High School

Trois Mouvements Symphoniques-III
Akira Miyoshii / Tomoo Motozu -/ Joso Gakuin High School

Turandot
Giacomo Puccini / Harunori Ishizuya -/ Narashino High School

Concerto for Orchestra
Bela Bartok / Kazuhiro Morita -/ Inagakuen Sogo High School

Rapsodie Espagnole - IV. Feria
Maurice Ravel / Kousuke Tatsuta -/ Yodogawa Technical High School

I was also told the bands were even more impressive visually. How I wish I was there to watch the DVD myself!

By the way, HSCB will be playing “AIRS for wind orchestra” for the coming NBC. It’s a fantastic sounding piece.

I do hope they will play well this time!

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February 27th, 2006» Need for a change

- 10:33 pm

I really feel I need to redesign my whole site soon. Those who was with me should know that I’ve been sticking to this design for almost a year! Yes, it’s getting boring and I hardly change anything other than blogging about useless things I find amusing.

So, what’s stopping me then? Actually, I have been very busy and tired since I’ve entered my college. Last year, my school ended around 5 p.m. almost everyday. Upon reaching home, I would take a shower, eat my dinner, watch some television programme, check my mails, do my tutorials and go to sleep. As for the weekends, I normally just sleep in and enjoy laying around doing nothing. I realised that, for over a year, I have been doing things that I never find joy doing.

Seriously, I need to either look for a reason to continue doing what I’m doing or perhaps to finally stop what I have been doing so far and start doing things that I know I will enjoy doing. Nevertheless, I am afraid to take up the first step, to stray from the normal path everyone is taking. I am, afterall, not much of an adventurous person. Besides, I have expectations as well as my responsibilities and duties to fulfill. I told myself many times that I must hang on and complete what I set up to do. Nevertheless, I still can’t help but feeling miserable trying to be what I’m not.

In addition, I honestly feel that I’ve failed myself much more than I’ve failed others. For as long as I have remembered, I’ve been trying to satisfy people, mostly my family and friends, around me. I feel that instead of piloting my own life, I’ve been acting as a complement to others. Sometimes, to a point that I feel I’ve been taken advantage of. And often, I don’t really feel appreciated. I know one shouldn’t feel the need to be appreciated for things one have done but it does hurt, sometimes, knowing that one is not being recognised for what one have contributed.

I need to think. I must know what I really want.

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February 19th, 2006» Restricted Comfort

- 7:20 pm

I really hate having to work under the watchful eyes of people. I don’t feel comfortable, at all, doing my tutorials or studying when others are present. That’s one reason I was against renting out the room.

For several months, I’ve been doing my assignments in the living room because I no longer have my own room. My father now sleeps in the room that was once mine. However, the living room now is also often occupied by the tenants to watch the television show. I often ended up doing my tutorial, at around 9pm, when they sleep.

This has been bothering me for as long as the tenants first moved in. Nevertheless, I couldn’t bring myself to share my thoughts with any of my family members yet as they would think I’m procrastinating anyway. I had several disagreements with my mother over the room before as well. I couldn’t believe my parents would take away my room and have not taken my needs into considerations at all. And now, they just left me with absolutely no private space in the house.

Argh. I really need some place to study and do my work. I also need some space where I know I can be left alone at times.

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